Chapter 3: The Point Of No Return
The first faint light of dawn peered shyly through the cracks in the curtains. I lay on the cold sheets, a prisoner of my own fears and doubts, and waited for the early morning sunlight to warm my room.
She was keeping a secret, my Lilith. I knew it unconsciously, that feeling that something new was happening, something I could not quite put my finger on, but couldn't escape.
This was odd. Lilith was never one to skulk around, or hide things from me.
She would tease me, without a doubt, but always have the integrity to lay her cards on the table.
"What's with all this secrecy, Lilith?" I asked, feigning a nonchalant tone. She knew my game, that's why she spun around and flashed me a mischievous grin.
"Maybe I've decided to start keeping secrets. What would you do if I did?" she taunted, as she prowled toward me, her lithe body swaying confidently.
"I suppose I'd have to pry it out of you," I replied, trying to hold my ground. She laughed, reaching out to trace one of her long, sharp nails down my cheek. A shiver ran down my spine, as it always did whenever I felt her touch.
"Well, I don't know if you're up to the challenge this time, darling," she whispered, her voice low and sultry.
We spent the rest of the morning like that, sparring back and forth with words as we ate the sumptuous breakfast she had prepared for us.
I could not help but feel that something was going on, but she deflected every question I brought up, leaving me even more in the dark.
"Alright, Lilith, enough with these games. You know I don't like it when you keep things from me," I finally admitted, frustrated.
"I suppose it's time I stopped treating you like a child, Nathaniel," she sighed, her eyes drifting to rest on my lips. I swallowed hard, suddenly overwhelmed by the intimacy that had briefly sprung up between us.
"What do you mean?" I asked quietly, uncertain where this sudden shift in our relationship was heading.
She looked away sheepishly, for a brief moment showing a vulnerability I had never seen before. "Today is special, Nathaniel. More special than any ordinary Valentine's Day," she murmured, eyes downcast.
"What do you mean?" I asked, my curiosity piqued, but my heart beating a little faster.
I couldn't explain why, but the tension in the air was almost palpable, and my senses were on high alert.
It was as if something important was about to happen, something that would change everything between us.
"It's Valentine's Day, Lilith. That's why it's special," I said, trying to keep my cool, but my voice sounded unsure even to my own ears.
She looked at me with an expression I couldn't quite recognize, but it stirred something deep inside me. I felt a strange pull, something magnetic that I couldn't resist.
She slowly stepped closer to me, our faces inches apart, and I could feel her warm breath on my skin.
"I'm not talking about the holiday," she whispered, her voice barely audible.
"I don't understand," I admitted, my voice barely above a whisper.
She hesitated for a moment, then leaned in further, her lips brushing against my ear.
"I'm in love with you." she whispered, her voice shaking slightly.
I didn't know what to say, my mind racing with a whirlwind of emotions.
Lilith pulled back, her emerald eyes searching my face, looking for some sign of how I felt.
I wanted to tell her that I loved her too, that I had been hiding my feelings from her for months. But I was afraid, afraid that she would just manipulate me into confessing so she could feed more from me.
"Please say something." she implored, guiding my chin up so that I met her gaze.
"Don't...don't give me hope." My voice was barely above a whisper, but she heard me. She saw the turmoil in my eyes and knew that I was struggling with my feelings for her.
Lilith's smile faltered, and for a moment, I saw a look of vulnerability in her eyes that I had never seen before.
"I suppose I should come clean, I assume you have by now you have figured out that I can read your mind, but I would like to tell you how it works."
She continued "I don't hear your thoughts the moment you think them, it's more like I can enter your mind and search for them at my leisure. I try to refrain from this as much as I can to respect your privacy, but about a month ago, I got the feeling that you something was bothering you terribly. You were also becoming more guarded around me. I tried asking about it but you kept deflecting my questions, so I thought I had no choice." Lilith looked down at her hands, avoiding eye contact with me.
"I see." I whispered, taking a moment to process her words. "And what did you find?"
A moment of silence passed between us as she hesitated. "The truth." she finally confessed. "I found out that you loved me. I didn't search as to why you wouldn't say it to me, I felt horrible enough the moment I found out and left as soon as I learned of your feelings, but I hoped with enough time, you would gather up the courage." she explained, her voice trembling slightly.
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I had always suspected that Lilith could read my mind, but to hear her confirm it, it was unnerving. I felt a mixture of shock, betrayal, and anger.
"So, you've known all this time?" I asked through gritted teeth, trying to keep my voice steady.
She nodded. "Yes. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to betray your trust.
I just wanted to understand why you were suddenly so distant. And I certainly didn't expect to fall in love with you myself." Lilith said, her voice barely above a whisper.
"May I know why you never said anything?" she asked, her green eyes searching mine. I couldn't help but appreciate how beautiful she looked, even with the hint of sadness in her gaze.
"I didn't want to burden you with my feelings," I said, honestly. "I was afraid that you would only pretend to love me back, so you could more easily feed off of me. I didn't want to be a source of sustenance, Lilith. I wanted to be someone you truly cared for."
Lilith looked taken aback by my words.
She opened her mouth to say something, then closed it, looking away. After a long silence, she finally spoke. Her voice was soft, almost a whisper, and I couldn't help but feel a pang of guilt for hurting her.
"I can't say that I blame you, Nathaniel. After all, I am a succubus, and I do feed on your cum. It's only natural for you to assume that my feelings for you are insincere." She looked at me then, her eyes searching mine.
I could see the hurt in her gaze, and for a moment, I regretted my words. It wasn't her fault that she was a succubus. It wasn't her fault that her very existence relied on feeding off of the emotions of others.
"I had fears too, you know." she said.
"I feared that you would think me unworthy of your affection, simply because of what I am. And then what? I can't leave you, I'm your familiar, my essence is bound to you. I would have to be intimate with someone who didn't reciprocate my feelings."
She paused, trying not to tear up, "but I didn't want to look back decades from now and think 'what if.' I wanted to take the chance and tell you the truth, because even if it didn't change anything, at least I wouldn't have any regrets."
Her words touched me, and I could see that she was being sincere. I felt like a fool for doubting her, for assuming the worst. I reached out to her, taking her hand into mine.
"I'm sorry, Lilith. I should have trusted you the way you trusted me. I should have had more faith in you, in us." She smiled, squeezing my hand gently.
It was a small gesture, but it spoke volumes about the depth of her emotions. In that moment, I realized that I had not only been letting my preconceptions drive a wedge between us, but I had also been underestimating her as well.
I had been so caught up in my own fears and doubts, that I had failed to see the full picture. Lilith was more than just a succubus. She was a complex person, someone who could love and be loved in return. And I had been denying us both that chance.
I had been blinded by my own insecurities, and I had let it cast a shadow over our relationship.
But in that moment, looking into her emerald green eyes, I knew that I couldn't hold back any longer. I couldn't deny my feelings for her any longer.
"I love you too, Lilith." I whispered, my voice hoarse with emotion.
She gasped, her eyes filling with tears.
And I couldn't resist, I pulled her close and kissed her deeply, pouring all of my emotions into that one, single kiss.
She responded with equal fervor, her arms wrapping around my neck as she deepened our connection.
As we pulled apart, gasping for breath, I couldn't help but feel like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.
I had found my other half, my soulmate, in the most unexpected of places. And she had accepted me for who I was, flaws and all.
But as we stared into each other's eyes, I knew that we still had a long way to go.
We were still saddled with the constraints of our unique relationship, with the fact that Lilith still needed to feed off of my emotions in order to survive.
"I know we can make this work. I know we can." Lilith murmured, breaking the silence.
"I hope so, Lilith. I really do." I replied, my voice trembling with emotion.
She smiled then, leaning in to press her lips to mine once more.
I eagerly deepened the kiss, my hands finding their way to her curves, cupping her luscious ass.
"Mmm, yes, Nathaniel. Just like that." Lilith moaned, her voice low and sultry.
I picked her up, her legs wrapping around my waist as I carried her towards the bed. I gently laid her down, my body following hers as I hovered above her, our lips barely a fraction of an inch apart.
"I want you, Lilith.
All of you." I growled, my voice gravelly with lust. "Fuck, yes," she breathed, her hands fisting in my hair as she pulled me down for another deep, passionate kiss.
I slid my hands under her shirt, my fingers splayed wide as I explored her soft, smooth skin. I ran my hands over her breasts, marveling at how perfect they felt in my grasp. I could feel her nipples harden under my touch, as a small gasp escaped her lips. She arched her back, pressing herself further into my hands.
"I've been meaning to ask" Lilith moaned slightly, "I can alter my body to whatever proportions however you like to suit your preferences, oh right there! But you've never asked me to. Why is that?
"Because you can't improve on perfection." I barely managed to get out.
I leaned down to capture her nipple in my mouth, teasing and nipping at the sensitive flesh. Lilith cried out, her back arching in pleasure. I flicked my tongue against her nipple, savoring the taste of her skin on my tongue.
Lilith gasped, her hands gripping my hair tightly as I switched to her other breasts, lavishing it with the same attention. I could feel her growing more and more aroused beneath me, her hips grinding against mine as she sought out friction.
I could feel her wetness seeping through the fabric of her panties, coating my fingers as I slipped them under the waistband.
"Oh, god, yes, just like that." Lilith moaned, her voice low and sultry as she writhed beneath me.
I slipped two fingers inside of her, feeling her tight warmth surround me. She was so wet, so ready for me. I could feel her walls tightening around my fingers, pulling me deeper inside of her.
But I wanted more. I wanted to fuck her until she forgot her own name. I wanted to bury myself inside of her so deep that she would never want me to leave. I pulled my fingers out of her slowly, savoring the feeling of her heat against my skin. I looked down at her, at the way she was looking up at me with such desire and need in her eyes.
"How do you want me?" she whispered, her voice full of love.
"I want you on your back, and our arms around each other. I want to be as close to you as I can possibly get." I said, my voice barely above a whisper.
Lilith whimpered softly, her eyes heavy-lidded with desire. She spread her legs wide, inviting me to take her. I didn't need any more encouragement. I positioned myself at her entrance, looking deep into her eyes as I began to push inside of her.
We both moaned softly as I filled her completely, our bodies becoming one.
"You feel so good." Lilith gasped, her nails digging into my back as I started to move.
I pulled almost all the way out, then slammed back in, making her cry out in pleasure. I moved harder and faster, my hips pistoning as I drove into her again and again.
"Oh, fuck, yes! Just like that!" she screamed, her legs wrapping tightly around my waist as she begged for more.
We moved together, our bodies slick with sweat as we became lost in each other. I could feel every inch of her, the way her walls clenched around me, the way she gasped and shuddered in my arms.
I could feel her pleasure building, her legs trembling as I drove into her with all the force I could muster.
"You feel so fucking good, Lilith, I've wanted this for so long," I growled, my voice full of lust and desire.
"Me too, Nathaniel, me too," she whimpered, her voice full of emotion.
I could feel her tightening around me, her entire body shuddering as she reached the brink of orgasm.
I could feel her walls fluttering, her muscles spasming as she struggled to hold back. But I didn't want her to hold back. I wanted her to let go, to give herself to me completely.
"Come for me, Lilith. I want to feel you come undone in my arms." I urged her, my voice ragged with lust.
With a loud cry, she let go, her entire body convulsing in pleasure as she came harder than she ever had before.
I felt her walls clenching around me, practically milking me for all I was worth.
"Yes, yes, oh fuck, YES!" she screamed, her back arching off the bed as she rode out her orgasm. I could see the pleasure written all over her face, in the way her eyes rolled back, in the way her lips formed a perfect 'O' as she cried out in ecstasy.
I could feel my own climax building, every muscle in my body tensing up as I pounded into her with all the force I could muster.
I could feel the pressure building up in my balls, my cock swelling to an almost painful degree as I approached the edge.
"Fuck, Lilith, I'm so close." I warned her, my voice ragged with lust. She whimpered, her eyes still closed in bliss as she felt me nearing my own peak.
"Come for me. Fill me up, I want to feel you come inside me." She pleaded, her voice barely above a whisper.
She was so close, I could feel her trembling with anticipation. I couldn't hold back any longer. With a loud groan, I buried myself deep inside of her, feeling my cock twitch and pulse as I released my hot, sticky load.
"Yes! YES! FUCK!" I screamed, my arms shaking as I felt the orgasm tear through my body.
Lilith moaned, the sound muffled by the pillow she had buried her face in. She was shaking, her entire body convulsing as she felt me fill her up.
I could feel her warmth spilling out around my cock, coating me in her sticky release. I groaned, my head falling to her shoulder as I enjoyed the feeling of my own climax.
We stayed like that for what felt like hours, but in reality, was only a few minutes. My hips were still moving, albeit at a slower pace, as I detangled myself from Lilith's legs, and collapsed on the bed beside her.
"Wow." I breathed, my chest heaving as I tried to catch my breath.
My whole body throbbed in time with my pounding heart, and I could still feel the aftershocks of my orgasm pulsing through me.
Lilith, on the other hand, was already recovering, a small, sated smile playing on her lips. "I can't remember the last time I came that hard," she murmured, reaching out to brush a strand of hair off my forehead.
I looked at her, feeling something inside me shift. I had been attracted to Lilith for a long time, but I had never allowed myself to fully acknowledge or accept those feelings.
I had convinced myself that she was only interested in me as a source of sustenance, and nothing more.
But now, as I lay next to her in bed, my body still humming with pleasure, I couldn't deny the truth any longer. I was in love with Lilith, and I wanted her with every fiber of my being.
As if sensing my thoughts, Lilith turned to face me, her green eyes shining with affection. "I love you," she whispered, reaching out to stroke my cheek.
"I love you too, Lilith," I murmured, my voice thick with emotion. I couldn't believe it was finally happening. I had dreamed of this moment for so long, and now that it was here, I couldn't believe how real it felt.
We lay there for a moment, basking in the afterglow of our lovemaking. But even as we did, I could feel the familiar stirrings of desire, the desire for more. I looked over at Lilith, at the way she was looking at me with such love and tenderness in her eyes.
I couldn't believe how lucky I was to have her, how lucky I was to be with her. I couldn't believe that she loved me back, that she wanted me just as much as I wanted her.
But as I looked at her, I could feel the familiar stirrings of desire, the desire for more. I reached out, tracing my fingers down her bare arm, feeling the softness of her skin beneath my fingertips.
"Again?" she asked, a playful smile on her lips.
I didn't hesitate to answer. "Absolutely."