Chapter 1: Chapter 1
I joined this group when I was 12 years old. There was a man 14 years older than me. Arthur Morgan, I fell in love with his steel-blue eyes. I thought it was a childhood crush, but today 9 years later, I still love him like the first day. But he always saw me as a "girl". Damn! I can't hold myself anymore.
November 15, 1886. On a cold night, I had to share a tent with Arthur Morgan! God! It annoys me that he always treats me like his sister. That's why he wanted to share my tent with me. Arthur's tent was torn down in yesterday's storm. As I thought, I rolled to the left and my body hit Arthur's muscular body. "Oh I'm sorry. I forgot you were here." He smiled. "Relax, girl. I apologize for occupying your tent." He stretched and yawned.
"I'm sure you didn't. It was a very long night. You'll sleep well tonight." I smiled. He looked at me. My smile vanished. "What?" he said.
"Nothing. You look like you're in a better mood than you were last night." I stared at my hands. "I'm having a hard time dealing with everything that's happened."
He wrapped his arms around me. "It's okay. I understand. You'll be ok Vera" "Arthur, can I ask you a personal question?" He surprised "Sure girl" I take a deep breath and I rolled from his hugh. "Why you never married?"
He sighed. "Well, You see what kind of life I lead. I can't leave the group. I cannot condemn any woman to this nomadic life with me" I turned my gaze to the lamp at the entrance of the tent. "If they were me, I would marry you. You are kind, intelligent and compassionate. I think those women were all stupid." I feel my cheeks reddening. I can't look at Arthur's face. I kind of confessed. He always saw me as his sister because he was 14 years older than me.
"I'm glad you feel that way, Vera." he said. "That way, you'll be a good wife girl." I can't believe I said that. I'm so stupid! He is just like as always! Damn what did I expect? He never see me this way. I'm always little girl for him. I've been in this gang since I was 14 years old and I'm in love with it. Now I'm 23 years old and I'm still a virgin. Damn I'm stupid. I was just thinking about how much I want to marry Arthur. But he never see me like a woman.
I was lost in my thoughts. I was awaken at 2 am by the cold air. I look at Arthur's sleeping form. Arthur has his thin pants under a white shirt with the buttons open to his belly. His muscular and fine hairy chest looks great. When I saw that his eyes were closed, I continued to examine his body with my eyes. The bulge I saw when I looked at his pants made my heart quicken. How does it feel to touch him? How many women has Arthur slept with so far? How does it feel to be in his arms? I'll never know. Arthur never has sexual desire for me, so I'm too young for him. I felt my wetness. Oh my! How can I that horny for him? It's Arthur! I'm in love with him. I never can't marry with someone.
I closed my eyes. I think I slept for a few hours. When I woke up, Arthur's still sleeping. I'm so happy. I caressed his side and then his arm. I love him and this is caused a lot of main.
I walked to the river. I wanted to wash away the lustful thoughts from my mind. I looked at tent way and I hoped he's still sleeping. Time is still night. I take of my clothes. Water is so cold! But I have to get rid of my situation. I never want to take this mission. Because I know I will alone with Arthur. I started caress my body. I imagine my hands are Arthur's hands. I imagine he's touching my breasts. I started to moan. God, I need him. I'm wet. I can't stand.
I closed my eyes and I imagined Arthur kissing me. I imagined his kiss. I imagined him touching me. I moaned and I started to rub myself. I was so close to climax. I imagine he was climax. "Are you ok girl?" I opened my eyes. I almost had a heart attack. "Yes Arthur. Just water is so cold. Don't come! I'm naked! I'll be back in a minute." I ran back to my tent.
I threw the clothes away from my tent. I threw myself inside my sleeping bag. It's so damn cold. I have to get in to the warmth. I closed my eyes.
I felt a hand touching my shoulder. "Are you all right?" Arthur asked. I nodded."I just felt too dirty. I have to washed." I started to shiver. "You can wait until morning. Come here girl." He wrapped his arms around me."
He started to rub my back. Pretending to be asleep, I put my leg on him. His penis touches my knee. I'm going to have a heart attack from the excitement. I feel his nervousness.
He pushed aside my legs. I wake up and looked him. "Sorry Arthur. Just, you're so warm." He smiled, "İt's ok girl."Arthur?" "Yes Girl?" I take a deep breath. "Can I confess to you something?"
"Of course, Girl." "I... I..." I couldn't say it. I'm afraid of how he'll react. "I'm... I'm... I'm a virgin." He stared at me. "Really?" I nodded my head. "How old are you?" I told him 23. "Well, it's your choice. But I have to admit I'm surprised." I felt embarrassed. "When did you lose your virginity?" He coughed. "Vera. Are you drunk?"
He put his hand on my cheek. I looked into his eyes. I giggled. "Just curious Arthur."
"Too much curious, Girl. Just sleep!"
"Aww! You're shy! I'm confess to you right? You need to give me some!"
"You're so young." He hugged me. I felt his penis touch my thigh. "Don't worry, Girl. You'll find someone soon enough." "Thank you, Arthur." I hugged him. "You're welcome, Girl." Damn Arthur! I'm dying for you? How can't you see my feelings for you?
Let's sleep now." He turned to me and kissed my forehead. "Arthur I want to you're be my first." He just shocked "Girl! Did you just hit your head or something?" "I know I'm stupid. But I'm in love with you. I want you're be my first." He opened his eyes and looked at me. He started laughing. "Girl, you're crazy. I'm just a old bastard. You can't do it with me." "no you're not! Because I love you! I can't take my eyes from you? Are you blind or something Arthur! I'm so fucking love you! You're not old for me!" I pulled him close to me and kissed him.
He pushed me away. "You're crazy. I'm not your type, Girl. You can find someone who'll treat you right." "You're right! At least someone who's not a coward like you." In anger, I stood up and put on my coat. As I walk towards my horse, I can hear Arthur calling out behind me. I don't care. "Vera! Where are you going! Come back!" I'm angry with him. "Tavern! I'm going to find someone who'll fuck me!"
When I got to my horse, I started to ride away."don't be ridiculous Vera! I said come back!" I saw him near his horse. He looked at me in anger. I smiled at him. I knew I made a big mistake. "Just like you said. I'll find who treat me right!" He spurred his horse and went after me. I sped up my horse. I can't let him catch me. I was rejected and that's very embarrassing. "The only treatment you will receive will be the treatment of prostitues! They'll use you and throw you away! Don't be stupid, come back." He yelled. I laughed. I could hear him in the distance. "Vera! I'm warning you! I'm going to beat you if you don't stop!" My laughter increased. I heard him curse my name over and over again as I rode off. I felt a rope on my body. I fall on the ground. Oh my god! He didn't do it right? He just trow at me a Bola! I got up and trying to get rid of the rope. "Arthur! Untie me now!"He come to me and stow me his horse back. "Not a chance girl! You acting like a brat!" He grabbed hold of my arm tightly and pull me onto my feet. We stare each other down. "Look. You can't thinking straight Vera!" I laughed in anger. "Really? How can I more clear? I said I love you and you rejected me. End of the story!" "This is all you want? Just fucked by someone?" I asked breathlessly. "Do you care coward?"His face changed slowly from disappointment to rage. The veins popping out on his neck. "Don't talking with me that way girl..." I can feel his dangerous aura. But I don't care. I know he never hurt me. "What am I supposed to do? Pretend I don’t love you?"His temper exploded. His jaw became tight. He growls fiercely. He grabbed my hair and started kissing my lips. Oh my god! He is... Arthur Morgan kissing me... Till I melt into his kiss. His hands caress my body. My skin tingles all over. I lean into him. His body tightens around me. His kiss gets deeper. His tongue sweeps over my bottom lip.