Chapter 18: The Unwanted Witness
The courtyard at Seoul International University basked in the kind of late afternoon light that made everything look golden and soft, as if the world had been filtered through honey. Ginkgo leaves drifted lazily from the towering trees, catching the sun as they spiraled downward, landing in the hair of students who were too absorbed in their conversations to notice. The distant thud of a basketball against concrete echoed from the courts, punctuated by shouts and laughter, while the mingled scents of grilled meat and sesame oil drifted from the food stalls that lined the eastern edge of the quad.
Leonid Manoban was dead on his feet.
Three shifts at the café had bled into four, the morning rush blurring into the lunch rush, which had crashed directly into the after-class onslaught of students who all seemed to want their oat milk lattes at precisely the same moment. His back ached. His eyes burned. The bones in his legs felt like they'd been replaced with something brittle and hollow. And on top of it all, Jensen had kept him up late—much later than either of them had intended—and then had woken him at dawn with his usual blend of demands and whines and that particular way he had of making sleep seem like an afterthought.
The grass was soft beneath Leonid's body. He'd found a patch of shade under one of the larger ginkgo trees, where the roots created a natural cradle for his exhausted frame, and he'd simply collapsed. His blazer was crumpled beneath his head, his tie loosened, his shirt untucked and wrinkled. He hadn't even bothered to remove his shoes.
"You look like you died," Hana observed, peering down at him with a mixture of amusement and concern. She was a classmate from his marketing seminar—a cheerful girl with glasses and a persistent habit of lending him her notes when he skipped class to work.
"Maybe I did," Leonid mumbled, eyes closed. "This is hell. And you're the devil."
She laughed, bright and easy. "If I were the devil, I'd have made you do the group project. Which, by the way, is due Friday."
The thought made Leonid groan, a sound that vibrated up from his chest and out through his nose. "Friday," he repeated, as if the word itself was a curse. "I've worked seven days straight. I haven't slept more than four hours a night in a week. My body is a shrine to caffeine and resentment, and you're telling me the group project is due Friday?"
"You skipped Tuesday's workshop."
"Tuesday's workshop was at noon."
"And?"
"And I was working the lunch shift at the café." Leonid forced one eye open, glaring up at her. "Do you know how many oat milk lattes I made between noon and two? Forty-three. I counted. Forty-three people wanted oat milk lattes. What the hell is wrong with everyone?"
Hana snorted. "You know you're not the only café on campus, right?"
"I'm the only café that stays open past six and doesn't charge extra for the oat milk," Leonid said. "I'm the only café that lets the regulars sleep in the corner booth. I'm the only café where the barista is pretty enough that people come back just to stare at him." He closed his eye again. "Wait, that's me. I'm the pretty barista."
"You're delusional is what you are."
"Delusional and exhausted." Leonid shifted, trying to find a more comfortable position on the grass. "If I don't get at least three hours of actual vertical sleep, I'm going to fail out of this university and lose my scholarship and end up living under a bridge, but at least I'll be well-rested."
Hana sat beside him, crossing her legs. She reached out and brushed a stray leaf from his hair. "You should really take a day off. Maybe two."
"Can't."
"Why not?"
Because Jensen had been especially needy lately. Because Jensen had been clinging to him like a drowning man, his fingers always reaching, his mouth always close, his eyes always watching with that fever-bright intensity that Leonid couldn't resist and couldn't satisfy and couldn't seem to live without. Because every time Leonid tried to pull back, tried to catch his breath, Jensen's hand found his and squeezed, and the squeeze said everything: Don't leave. Don't breathe. Don't think. Just stay.
He couldn't say that to Hana.
"I've got bills," Leonid said instead, which wasn't a lie, just not the whole truth. "And the savings account is looking sad."
Hana made a sympathetic noise. She shifted again, adjusting her position, and without asking, she carefully lifted Leonid's head and settled it in her lap. He was too tired to object, and her thighs were certainly more comfortable than the grass. She began to card her fingers through his hair, slow and rhythmic, and he let out a breath he hadn't realized he'd been holding.
"This is nice," he murmured, his voice drifting.
"You're going to be so embarrassed about this tomorrow."
"I'm going to be too tired to be embarrassed tomorrow. I'm going to be embarrassed never. This is great. Why haven't I been doing this every day?"
Hana laughed again. "Because I would have dumped you on the ground the first time."
"Rude."
"Hush. Sleep."
Leonid's eyes were already closing. Her fingers were gentle, tracing patterns against his scalp, and the weight of his exhaustion pressed down on him with each passing moment, pulling him under, dragging him to a place where the world faded and the warmth was enough. He felt his muscles unclench. Felt the tension drain from his jaw and his shoulders. Felt his body give in to the soft cradle of her lap and the soothing rhythm of her touch.
He was asleep within seconds.
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Jensen Kim was crossing the courtyard with a coffee in each hand.
One was a double-shot espresso with a splash of oat milk, the way he knew Leonid liked it—not because Leonid had told him, but because Jensen had spent three weeks watching him make it at the café, memorizing the exact ratio, the precise temperature. He'd had to charm the barista at this particular stall into giving him the good beans, the ones they kept in the back. It was done. It was perfect. He was going to walk up to Leonid and hand him the cup and watch his face soften with that quiet surprise he always had when Jensen did something thoughtful and unexpected.
He was going to do all of that.
He spotted Leonid almost immediately—a sprawl of pale skin and black curls on the grass beneath the big ginkgo tree, his body arranged in a vulnerable tangle of long limbs. Jensen's lips curved into a fond smile that lasted maybe half a second.
Because there was a girl.
Because her lap was cradling Leonid's head.
Because her fingers were in his hair, stroking through those dark curls, touching what was Jensen's. Touching what had always been Jensen's.
The smile vanished.
Jensen's feet stopped moving of their own accord. The coffee cups trembled in his grip.
He didn't know her. He recognized her vaguely from the business building—one of Leonid's classmates, maybe, someone who sat in the back of the lecture hall and took notes and laughed too loudly at the professor's jokes. She didn't matter. She was nobody. But her hand was in Leonid's hair, and her thigh was beneath Leonid's head, and Leonid, gorgeous, unconscious, devastating Leonid, looked peaceful.
The jealousy hit him like a physical blow—hot and sharp and rising up from the base of his sternum with a force that stole his breath.
He wanted to scream. He wanted to throw the coffee. He wanted to grab that girl's wrist and twist until she screamed, to drag Leonid up by the collar and drag him away where no one could touch him, no one could even look at him in a way that suggested ownership, because that was Jensen's job. That was Jensen's right. That had been Jensen's right since before either of them understood what the word meant.
The coffee cups hit the concrete.
The sound of them landing was loud enough to make heads turn. Hot liquid splashed out, spreading across the polished stone in dark brown pools, but Jensen didn't notice. He was already moving, crossing the remaining distance with long, purposeful strides, his feline eyes fixed on the scene in front of him.
The girl looked up when his shadow fell across her. Her eyes widened. Her hand froze, mid-stroke, still buried in Leonid's hair.
"Jensen," she said, and her voice was uncertain, high-pitched. "I didn't—hi. He was—he just fell asleep and I didn't want to wake him—"
Jensen didn't acknowledge her. He bent down, his fingers closing around Leonid's arm with a grip that was precise and punishing, and he yanked the taller boy upright in one sharp motion.
Leonid's eyes snapped open, wild and unfocused. He stumbled, caught off balance, his hand bracing against Jensen's chest. "What the—Jen?"
"Time to go." Jensen's voice was clipped, ice-edged. His eyes drifted over Leonid's face, taking in the confusion there, the sleepiness, the crumpled state of his clothes. Then his gaze cut to the girl. "Now, baby."
Leonid blinked. If he noticed the coffee pooling on the ground, if he registered the tension in Jensen's shoulders or the way his jaw was set so tight that the muscle jumped beneath his skin, he didn't show it. He was still caught in that disorienting space between sleep and waking.
"I was just resting," he said slowly. "I haven't slept in—"
"I said," Jensen repeated, his hand tightening on Leonid's arm, "time to go."
The girl scrambled to her feet, her face flushed with embarrassment. "I didn't mean to—he just laid down and I thought he was tired and I should let him—"
"He is tired." Jensen's gaze snapped to her, carrying all the warmth of a blade. "I'll make sure he rests. In my bed."
The innuendo was deliberate. Brutal. The girl's eyes widened even further, her mouth opening and closing without sound.
Leonid, finally catching on, let out a short laugh. "Jen, you're being—"
"She was touching your hair." The words came out through clenched teeth. "Like she had any right. Like she knew anything about you."
"Jen—"
"Let's go."
He didn't give Leonid a chance to argue. He pulled him forward, hard enough that Leonid nearly stumbled, his blazer trailing from his hand where he'd snatched it off the grass. He was aware of the stares, aware of the whispers starting to rise like static, aware of the girl standing frozen in their wake with her hands clasped in front of her. None of it mattered.
"Jensen." Leonid lengthened his stride to match Jensen's quick pace, his hand try to catch Jensen's. "Seriously. What the hell?"
The courtyard fell away behind them. The dorms loomed ahead, gray and institutional, but they might as well have been miles away for how long it took to reach them. Jensen was vibrating now, a low, humming energy that pulsed off him in waves, and each step was agony.
"Jen. Jensen. Baby. Talk to me."
They hit the stairwell. The echo of their footsteps bounced off the concrete walls. Jensen dragged Leonid upward—past the 2nd floor landing, the 3rd, the 4th—until they reached the 5th floor, where the hallway was quiet, empty.
He shoved Leonid against the door of his dorm room.
"Your key."
Leonid fumbled, pulling it from his pocket. His dark eyes were fixed on Jensen, searching, trying to read the storm behind those feline pupils. "You're shaking. Jen, tell me what's going on."
The key slid into the lock. The door swung open. Jensen pushed Leonid through it.
The room was dark, shut tight against the afternoon light. The lingering scent of smoke and coffee hung in the air. The sheets on the bed were still rumpled from the night before, twisted into evidence of everything they'd done.
Jensen slammed the door behind them.
"Her name." His voice was low, dangerous.
"What?"
"The girl. What's her name?"
Leonid sighed, running a hand through his disheveled hair. "Hana. She's in my marketing seminar. She's a friend. She was just letting me sleep because I've been falling apart this week and she was being kind—"
"Kind." Jensen laughed, bitter and broken. "She was petting you like you were a goddamn dog, and you want me to believe she was being kind?"
"She was being nice, Jensen. That's what people do with their friends. They let them rest when they're exhausted." Leonid's voice was sharpening now, frustration bleeding through. "You're the only person in my life who thinks affection is a weapon."
It was the wrong thing to say.
Jensen's face closed off. His expression went still, all that savage energy compressing into something smaller, colder. "She gets to touch you?" His voice was quiet. "She gets to put her hands in your hair, to cradle your head, to look at you like she has any claim to you and it's just nice? It's just friendly?"
"She's not a threat, Jen—"
"You don't know that." Jensen stepped closer, his body vibrating with barely contained fury. "You don't know what people see when they look at you. You're so goddamn beautiful, Leonid, and every single person in that courtyard was looking at you, was wanting you, and she had her hands in your hair, she was touching you, and you just let her because you're too goddamn trusting to understand that I am the only person who should ever—"
"Should ever what?" Leonid's voice was rising now. "Love me? Care for me? Jensen, I was sleeping. I was exhausted because I've been working three jobs and you've been keeping me up every night and I can barely keep my eyes open and she was just there, keeping me company so I didn't look like a homeless person on the quad—"
"Don't you get it?" Jensen shoved him, not hard but meaning something by it. "Every time I see someone touch you, someone look at you, I want to burn the whole damn world down. I can't breathe. I can't think. I just see you with someone else and I want to—"
"Tear them apart? Hurt them?" Leonid cut him off, stepping into Jensen's space until only inches separated them. "That's not love, Jensen. That's not even possessiveness. That's an obsession you've wrapped up in pretty words and you think if you say I'm yours enough, it'll make the ugliness go away, but it won't."
Jensen's breath came in ragged gasps. He was shaking now, his whole body trembling with the force of his feelings. "I love you. I have loved you since I was five years old. You are the first thing I see when I wake up and the last thing I think about before I sleep and if you think I'm just going to stand by and watch someone else—"
"There is no one else." Leonid reached out, grabbing Jensen's wrists, squeezing them tight. "There has never been anyone else. There will never be anyone else. You're my nemesis and my best friend and every morning I look at your face and I want to be better, be calmer, be everything you need. Hana is just a girl who was kind to me because I'm drowning."
The word hung between them.
Drowning.
Jensen's grip loosened. His shoulders sagged.
"Three jobs," he repeated, as if only now hearing. "You've been working three jobs?"
Leonid's laugh was hollow. "My rent isn't going to pay itself, Jen. Not everyone has a trust fund and a family legacy waiting for them."
"This week has been chaos," Jensen said, rubbing the back of his neck with his free hand. "My father's been hounding me about summer internships, and the student council budget is a nightmare, and I thought you were just being distant because you were—"
"Because I was going to pass out?" Leonid finished, a gentle, teasing edge creeping into his voice. "Because I was going to collapse on the quad and let some girl cradle my head like I was a baby bird?"
Jensen let out a sound that was half laugh, half sob. "Don't make me feel bad. I hate it when you make me feel bad."
Leonid pulled him forward then, wrapping him in a hug that was almost overwhelming. Jensen melted into it, his face pressing against Leonid's chest, his arms encircling Leonid's torso, clinging, absolutely clinging.
"I'm not going anywhere," Leonid murmured into the top of his head. "You're so goddamn obsessive, but you're also the only reason I kept going through any of this."
"You can't sleep in other women's laps." The words are muffled by Leonid's shirt.
"And you can't paint me into your obsessive fantasy," Leonid shot back gently. "But we're both going to keep trying, aren't we?"
Jensen's fingers tightened. "When I die, I want to be buried with you. In the same casket."
"Jesus, you're macabre."
"It's not macabre, it's commitment." Jensen tilted his head up, meeting Leonid's eyes with an expression that was utterly serious. "I want dust mixing with your dust. I want bones tangled with your bones. I want it to be impossible to tell for sure." He breaks off, and his voice goes quiet. "Because that is how much you are mine."
Leonid stared down at him, caught somewhere between exasperation and adoration. "You stopped short my coffee launch and threw it on the ground."
"I'll buy you another coffee."
"You caused a scene in front of the entire courtyard."
"I'll cause another scene buying you another coffee."
"You almost gave my friend a heart attack."
"Your friend should keep her hands to herself." Jensen smiled then, sharp and predatory even through the vulnerability. "Next time I might not be so understanding. I'm a monster, remember? Turned loose whenever you don't do what I need."
"You are absolutely insane," Leonid said fondly.
"That's what 'I love you' sounds like to me.”
"Come on." Leonid steered them both toward the bed, where the mess of rumpled sheets and tangled blankets awaited. He guided Jensen down onto the mattress, lying beside him, curling his body around Jensen's smaller frame. "Sleep with me first, okay?"
Jensen shifted, turning in Leonid's arms until he could look at him properly. "I don't want to sleep."
"You do," Leonid murmured, pressing a kiss to Jensen's forehead. "I'm tired. You're wired. We'll argue more after I'm not so tired that people can form a line to hold my head while I nap."
A beat of silence, and we see a sneer curl onto Jensen's lips. "They won't get the chance."
"They never do, do they?"
"They never will."
Leonid's eyes were already drifting closed. "Fine. I'm still going to be the one who makes you laugh tomorrow."
Jensen watched him, tracing the lines of Leonid's face with his gaze—the cupid's bow of his lips, the dark sweep of his lashes, the gentle curve of his jaw. The jealousy had faded to an ember, still burning low in his chest. It would never go out completely. Leonid was his. He was Leonid's. He was not yet sure what that meant for the two of them but he knew that he didn't need to be sure when he had the boy in his arms.
He curled closer, pressing his forehead against the back of Leonid's neck, breathing in the scent of him—smoke, cologne, the faint sweetness of coffee. A smile, small and private, curved his lips.
He closed his eyes and let sleep take him, Leonid's heartbeat steady beneath his palm.