Chapter 26: Chantelle is beside herself as the silicone plug was suppose to be body safe
The hum was the first thing. A low, eternal thrum of machines pushing air in, pulling it out, measuring the faint electricity of a stalled brain. The smell was next. Antiseptic, bleach, the faint metallic tinge of oxygen, and underneath it all, the cloying sweetness of industrial air freshener fighting a losing battle against mortal decay.
Chantelle sat in the rigid plastic chair, her fingers interlaced so tightly the knuckles were white pebbles. She hadn’t slept. The fluorescents carved hollows under her eyes. Before her, the thing in the bed was both monstrously familiar and utterly alien.
Jay. Or what was left of him.
He was a mountain under a bleached sheet, the ventilator tube taped obscenely to his mouth, snaking down his throat. His face was puffy, eyelids heavy and blue-veined. He’d never looked more male, and yet, paradoxically, more erased. The all-eclipsing explosion had imploded, leaving this silent, beeping ruin.
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She shook her head, a quick, brutal snap. No.
She’d called the number on Jay’s phone, listed as “Emergency – Diane.” His sister. A voice, clipped and alarmed, had asked for the details. Chantelle had given the clinical version: collapse, seizure, toxic shock likely secondary to a foreign body. She’d omitted the nature of the foreign body, the context of its insertion, the entire architecture of consent that had led to this sterile room. Diane was on a plane from Phoenix. She’d be here by evening.
She’ll see him like this, Chantelle thought. She’ll want to know why. The thought was a cold stone in her gut.
The doctor, a woman with a weary competence, had laid it out. “The material of the object he retained… it wasn’t medical grade. Under prolonged stress and exposure, certain polymers can break down, leach plasticizers, heavy metals. It creates a severe inflammatory response, a sepsis. His organs are under significant strain. The coma is his body’s way of shutting down to fight.”
Prolonged stress. Retained. Chantelle heard the unspoken subtext: Who leaves something like that in for so long? Ownership was a brand on her skin. She had selected the plug. She had inserted it. She had, through the remote, its trigger mechanism, orchestrated precisely the “prolonged stress” that had made it a poison suppository.
It wasn’t an accident. It was a direct consequence. Her design.
Her gaze drifted from the respirator’s rhythmic sigh to the narrow table beside the bed. On it, in a clear biohazard bag, sealed and labeled, was the cause. The sleek, matte black plug. It looked innocuous now, almost cheap, a piece of lurid trash in a clinical setting. A toy. Her toy.
Her mind, treacherously, didn’t go to the guilt first. It went to the last time she’d seen it, glistening with lube, taut against his body as he bent over the shipping table. The way his back muscles had rippled as she pushed it home. The low, choked sound of his submission. The power had been a drug, cleaner and more potent than anything she’d ever smoked. Now, the syringe was empty and the vein had turned gangrenous.
She leaned forward, elbows on her knees. “You stupid fuck,” she whispered, not to him, but to herself, to the room, to the universe that had wired her this way. “You beautiful, stupid fuck. Why didn’t you just say stop?”
But she knew why. She’d systematically dismantled his ability to say stop. She’d made his “stop” into her “go.” She’d relished the blurring of that line. The labyrinth of neon and whispered secrets had one true Minotaur, and it wasn’t him.
A memory, unbidden and viciously tactile, slammed into her.
Not from the day of the collapse. From before. A week prior. The back room. She had him on his knees, wearing just the G-cup breasts, the silicone orbs pale and shocking against his hairy chest. The chastity cage, that clever, cruel piece of engineering that hid his cock and presented a smooth, faux-vulva, was locked in place.
“You want to come?” she’d asked, her voice idle, as she sorted invoices.
“Yes, Chantelle. Please.”
“Then open it.”
He’d fumbled, his big fingers clumsy on the small, decorative lock that was purely psychological. He’d gotten the cage open, his cock springing out, hard and angry-red. He’d looked at her, hopeful, desperate.
She’d walked over, pushed him back onto the floor, and straddled his face. “Not with that,” she’d said, grinding her cunt over his mouth. “You come from tasting me. You come when I drip down your chin. That’s your release. That pathetic dick is just for my visual amusement.”
And he had. After twenty minutes of her riding his mouth, pinching his captive nipples through the silicone breasts, he’d bucked beneath her, a muffled, sobbing cry vibrating against her clit as he spent himself untouched on his own stomach. She’d slid off, looked at the mess, and laughed. “Pathetic. Clean it up. With your tongue.”
He had.
The memory was a hot knife in her chest. That was control. That was perfection. This… this was a system failure. A product recall.
The door sighed open. The doctor entered again, followed by a taller man in a white coat, his ID proclaiming him a toxicology specialist. They spoke in low, quick syllables, a language of acronyms and enzyme levels.
“...continued CRP elevation indicates persisting inflammation…”
“...renal function is our primary concern now, the heavy metal component can be nephrotoxic…”
“...the object itself was non-porous, but the breakdown products…”
They were talking about the plug like it was a piece of bad seafood. Chantelle felt a hysterical laugh bubble in her throat. She swallowed it, tasting bile.
The toxicologist noticed her. “Are you family?”
“I’m… the one who found him,” Chantelle said, her voice rough.
He nodded, his expression neutral. “Do you have any information about the object? Where it was purchased? A brand? Anything to help us identify the specific polymer blend?”
She thought of the stock room, the unmarked boxes from foreign suppliers, the thrill of finding new, edgy products. Profit margins over safety testing. She’d never once thought to check for medical-grade certifications. Why would she? It was a fucking sex toy.
“It was from my store,” she said, the words ash in her mouth. “I don’t have the paperwork. It was… a new item.”
The doctor and toxicologist exchanged a glance. That glance said responsible party. That glance said possible litigation.
“I see,” the toxicologist said. “Well, we’re doing everything we can. The coma is protective at this stage. We need his body to focus on combating the infection and flushing the toxins. Time is the key now.”
They left, their white coats whispering of consequences.
Silence descended again, broken only by the impassive machinery. Chantelle stood up. Her legs were stiff. She walked to the bedside. She looked at his hand, the one not tethered by an IV. It was a massive, square thing, dotted with dark hair. She remembered those hands trembling as they handed a customer a bag. She remembered them gripping the edge of the counter, white-knuckled, as the remote triggered.
Tentatively, she reached out. Her fingers hovered, then settled over his. The skin was warm. Too warm? She couldn’t tell. She wrapped her fingers around his. There was no reciprocal pressure. No life.
“This wasn’t the deal,” she murmured. “The deal was you giving it all to me. The deal was me taking it. This… this is just fucking entropy.”
She closed her eyes. Another memory, this one raw and recent. The final act before the collapse.
Her body, using his, the crude, primal claim. The feeling of his muscles tightening around her as he came untouched, the hot flood of his release on the leather. The savage, beautiful humiliation of it. She’d pulled out, slick with both of them, and seen him collapsed, trembling. She’d felt a surge of something so profound it scared her—a sense of perfect, absolute ownership. She’d tossed the towel, given the order to clean up. It was the ultimate power play: to command someone physically shattered. She’d assumed the tremor was submissive ecstasy. She’d been wrong. It was his nervous system, poisoned and beginning to snap.
She opened her eyes. The guilt was finally there, a vast, cold ocean waiting to swallow her. But nestled within it, sharp and undeniable, was a filament of anger. He should have been stronger. He should have signaled. He should have known his own limits. It was a vile, selfish thought, and she clung to it. It was the only thing keeping her from drowning.
She leaned closer, her lips near his ear, hidden from the door’s view by the curtain of her hair. Her voice was low, a secret for the comatose.
“You listen to me, you big, beautiful bitch,” she hissed, the words dripping with a fraught possession that bordered on mania. “You don’t get to check out. You don’t get to leave me holding this bag. You fucking fight. You swallow whatever poison I fed you and you fucking metabolize it. You hear me? That’s an order. You wake up. You wake up so I can punish you for scaring me.”
She straightened up, her hand leaving his. She felt emptied out, scorched. On the heart monitor, the green line spiked briefly—a rogue arrhythmia, a hiccup in the machine, a coincidental blip.
But to Chantelle, it was a sign. The first tremor of the seismograph. A response.
She sat back down, her eyes never leaving the rhythmic rise and fall of his chest, forced by the ventilator. Diane would be here soon. There would be explanations, performative grief, legal realities.
But in the sterile silence, charged with the ghost of latex and the scent of impending ruin, Chantelle reclaimed a sliver of her domain. She issued a command into the void. And in the deepest, most poisoned part of him, something, perhaps, had stirred.
And in the deepest, most poisoned part of him, something, perhaps, had stirred.
It was just a flicker behind his eyelids, a rapid twitch of the lashes against puffy skin. Chantelle froze, her breath clotting in her throat. She leaned in, her nose almost touching his cheek. “Jay?” The name was a scratch of sound.
Nothing. The machines maintained their indifferent rhythm.
The door clicked. Chantelle jerked upright, a guilty animal, as a woman entered. Diane. She had Jay’s height, but none of his softness. Her face was a drawn map of panic and cross-country travel, her eyes scanning the room and landing, with devastating accuracy, on Chantelle.
“You.” The word was flat. “You’re the one who called.”
“Yes.” Chantelle stood, the plastic chair screeching. “I’m Chantelle.”
Diane ignored her extended hand. She moved to the bedside, her own hand hovering over her brother’s forearm without touching it. She stared at the ventilator tube, the nest of wires, the bagged, sinister object on the table. Her shoulders tightened.
“They said it was an infection. From a… a thing.” Diane’s voice was dangerously quiet. “What thing? What happened?”
The air grew thinner. Chantelle’s pulse hammered in her temples. The command she’d whispered to Jay still echoed in the space between her ears. You wake up so I can punish you. Now, facing the clean, sharp line of Diane’s grief, those words felt monstrous.
“He came into my store,” Chantelle began, the rehearsed lie ash on her tongue. “He was a regular. He bought… items.”
Diane turned. Her eyes weren’t kind. “What kind of items?”
A memory detonated, bright and shameful. Her backroom, three weeks ago. Jay on his knees, the fake breasts swaying, his locked cage a smooth, humiliating curve. Her hand was fisted in his hair, pulling his head back. “Open your mouth, you greedy slut.” She’d spat into it. He’d swallowed, his Adam's apple bobbing, a low whine escaping him as she guided her strap-on against his lips. “You love this, don’t you? Love being my fucking cocksleeve.” He’d nodded, desperate, and she’d shoved the silicone head past his teeth, fucking his mouth with slow, brutal strokes until he gagged, tears cutting clean lines through the stubble on his cheeks.
“Sex toys,” Chantelle said, her voice hollow. “Novelties.”
Diane’s gaze fell to the biohazard bag. Understanding dawned, hardening her features into a mask of revulsion. “That? He put that in himself?”
Another memory, more recent. The remote buzzing in her pocket as she rang up a shy couple. Jay, across the store, restocking lube. His step had faltered. A tiny, choked sound. She’d glanced over, given him a slow, wicked smile, and turned the vibration up a notch. She’d watched the muscle in his jaw jump, seen the sheen of sweat on his temple. He’d looked back at her, eyes wide with a thrilling mixture of agony and devotion, and given a barely perceptible nod. More.
“It’s more complicated,” Chantelle whispered.
“Complicated?” Diane’s control snapped. “He’s in a coma! His kidneys are failing! What’s complicated? Did you sell him a defective product? Is that it?”
The accusation hung there, a ready-made escape hatch. Chantelle could nod. She could blame the supplier, the unnamed manufacturer, the global supply chain. It would be plausible. It might even be legally safer.
But the lie wouldn’t move. It lodged behind her breastbone, a dead weight. She saw Jay’s face not in devotion, but in the final moment. The blank, terrifying absence in his eyes as he seized. The sound his head made hitting the floor. The warm puddle of his piss soaking into her jeans as she crouched beside him, screaming for an ambulance.
She looked at Diane, and then past her, at the ruined mountain of a man she had methodically unraveled.
“It wasn’t just a sale,” Chantelle said. Her voice didn’t sound like her own. It was too quiet, too clear. “He came to me for the things he was afraid to want. I saw that fear. I… fed on it.”
Diane stared, uncomprehending. “What does that mean?”
“It means I didn’t just sell him a plug.” The words started tumbling out, heavy and ugly, each one a stone she’d been carrying. “I put it in him. In the back of the store. I had the remote. I made him wear it while he worked. A game. My game.” She was shaking now. “I turned the vibration up with every sale. He was sweating, trembling. I thought it was hot. I thought his obedience was beautiful. I made him come, just from that, earlier that day. He was so wrecked. So perfect.”
The room tilted. Diane’s hand flew to her mouth.
Chantelle couldn’t stop. The confession was a purge, a violent ejection of the truth. “After we closed, I fucked him. With a strap-on. Hard. He was face down on the counter. I wanted to own every part of him. I wanted to see him break. And he did. He came, screaming into the leather. Then he collapsed. But I thought… I thought it was just exhaustion. From the intensity. I told him to clean himself up. I left him there. When I came back, he was on the floor. Seizing. His eyes were rolled back in his head.”
A sob tore from Diane, raw and ragged. “You left him?”
“I called 911.” It was a weak defense, pathetic. “But I didn’t know. I didn’t think…”
“You didn’t think a foreign object, buzzing inside him for hours, after you’d… you’d assaulted him, could hurt him?” Diane’s voice rose to a shout. A nurse glanced in, then quickly away. “What is wrong with you?”
Everything. The word was a final truth. Chantelle had no answer. She just stood there, hollowed out, watching as Diane’s grief mutated into a tangible, burning hatred.
“Get out,” Diane hissed, the words trembling with fury. “Get out before I call security. Before I call the police.”
Chantelle took a step back. Her legs were numb. She looked once more at Jay, hoping for another flicker, a sign that he’d heard her damning herself. There was only the steady, artificial breath.
She turned and walked out, the echo of Diane’s weeping following her into the bright, indifferent hallway.
She turned and walked out, the echo of Diane’s weeping following her into the bright, indifferent hallway. The linoleum was a shiny, vomit-green river under the relentless fluorescents. Her shoes made a hollow, disconnected sound, like someone else was walking.
She reached the bank of elevators. Stabbed the button. The air felt gelatinous, slow to enter her lungs. Behind her, down the hall, the rhythmic, artificial hush of his room continued its metronomic lie.
Then it changed.
A single, high-piercing tone sliced through the murmur of the nursing station. It wasn’t urgent at first. Then it elongated, blaring a continuous, devastating note that stripped all other sound from the world. The flatline.
It wasn’t a sound from a television show. It was a physical invasion. It drilled into her molars, vibrated in the cage of her ribs. She turned, slowly, as if underwater.
Down the hall, the door to his room burst open. A nurse sprinted out, shouting a code to the station. The tall toxicologist and the weary doctor appeared from another doorway, moving with a dreadful, coordinated speed. Their faces were locked plates of focus. Diane’s scream cut over the alarm, a raw, animal sound of pure negation. “NO!”
Chantelle’s feet were bolted to the floor. The elevator dinged, its doors sliding open on an empty car. She didn’t move.
She saw a crash cart, a rattling metal beast, being shoved through the doorway by a respiratory therapist. More people in scrubs converged, a tide of blue vanishing into the room. The door swung shut, but not before she saw a glimpse of Diane being gently, firmly pushed back into a corner by a social worker, her face a grotesque mask of open-mouthed horror.
The flatline alarm screamed its one-note song of absence.
It was the remote, she thought absurdly. It was the remote in her pocket, set to its highest, most devastating setting, and she had just pressed the button from three hundred feet away. Her body moved. Not toward the elevator. Back toward the room.
She was a ghost drifting toward the epicenter. No one stopped her. She stopped just outside the sealed door, beside the rectangular window.
Inside, it was a controlled storm. A nurse tore open Jay’s hospital gown, exposing his broad, pale chest. The doctor rubbed gel on paddles. “Clear!” Bodies leapt back. Jay’s massive frame jerked, a grotesque, marionette’s spasm, his sternum lifting off the bed with a force that looked violent. The monitor showed a chaotic zigzag, then slumped back into the unwavering green line.
“Continue compressions! Epinephrine in.” A younger doctor was on the bed, kneeling beside Jay, raining brutal, two-handed blows onto his heart. The sound was a deep, wet thud. Each compression rocked the entire bed. Chantelle watched the doctor’s back muscles strain. Jay’s head lolled with each impact, utterly lifeless.
“Nothing! Still asystole.”
“Again. Clear!”
Another jerk. Another flatline. Diane had sunk to the floor, her face buried in her hands, her shoulders heaving silently. The social worker’s hand hovered over her back.
The charging whine of the defibrillator built again. The doctor’s eyes were hard, clinical. “Two hundred. Clear.”
Jay’s body arced again. This time, a jitter ran across the screen. A blip. Then another. The compressions stopped. Everyone froze, staring at the monitor. A slow, weak, but undeniable rhythm began to stutter across the green screen.
“We have a rhythm. Sinus tachycardia. It’s weak, but it’s organized.” The doctor’s shoulders dropped a fraction. “Get him on levo. Let’s stabilize this.”
The activity shifted, becoming less frantic, more procedural. The crisis was not over, but the immediate void had been pushed back. They had wrangled him from the absolute brink.
Chantelle unclenched her jaw. She tasted blood where she’d bitten her cheek. Her hands were curled into such tight fists her nails had split the skin of her palms. The flatline alarm had been silenced. In its place was the shaky, tentative beep of a re-engaged heart.
Diane lifted her head. Her bleary, shattered gaze found Chantelle’s face in the window.
There was no hatred now. There was nothing at all. Just a vast, hollowed-out recognition. A mirror.
Chantelle stumbled back from the door. The hallway seemed to tilt. She turned and this time she ran. Not for the elevator. For the stairwell. She hit the metal door with her shoulder, bursting into the concrete and iron echo chamber.
She fell against the painted cinderblock wall, sliding down until she was crouched on the cold stairs. The sound of the running code, the thud of the compressions, the unwavering scream of the flatline—it all looped in her skull.
Her phone buzzed in her pocket. Once. Twice. A text. She pulled it out with trembling fingers.
It was from the store’s security system. A motion alert. Back Room Motion Detected.
A cold different from the stairwell’s chill seeped into her bones. The store was closed. It was sealed. She knew every corner of it. Every shadow. Every secret.
The plug was in a biohazard bag in the ICU.
The remote was on her nightstand at home.
Jay was a broken vessel on a hospital bed, his heart just forcibly restarted.
But something was moving in their labyrinth.