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The Will of My Heart

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Mary Jones just wants to be with Will Stecher. She loves him, but isn't sure what to do about it.

Chapter 3: Midnight Interrogation

The ticking clock on her nightstand was the only sound in Mary’s apartment, a metronome marking the slow crawl of time. Will had been gone for two days, seventeen hours, and—she glanced at the clock—twenty-three minutes. He had texted, short messages: Landed. Client’s a prick. Thinking of you.

But the silence between the messages felt vast, filled with the ghost of his hands and the phantom ache in her wrists. She could still feel the rasp of his stubble against her inner thighs, the strength of him pinning her, the way he had unknotted the silk with a gentleness that contradicted everything that came before.

The emptiness was a physical condition.

The late shift at the coffee shop hadn’t helped. Her fingertips smelled of ground espresso and steamed milk, but the scent couldn’t penetrate the deeper craving. Her own bed felt too big, the sheets too clean. She’d showered, the hot water sluicing over her skin doing nothing but highlighting how untouched she felt.

Moonlight pooled on the floorboards, a cool, blue contrast to the soft yellow lamplight by her bed. She had tried to read, a worn paperback whose words swam meaninglessly. She’d tried to sleep. Her body was too aware of its own solitude.

A desperate, aching need bloomed low in her stomach. It wasn’t just horniness; it was a compulsion to feel connected to him, to bridge the miles by conjuring him in the only way she could. Her hand slipped under the waistband of her cotton shorts. She was already wet, a slick, shameful betrayal of her loneliness. She closed her eyes, and it was his face she saw, his blue eyes looking down at her as she came with him deep inside her.

Her fingers were poor substitutes. She pushed them inside, wishing they were thicker, harder. She imagined it was him, the slow, deep, possessive strokes. She bit her lip, arching her back on the mattress. The fantasy intensified, sharpened.

“Will,” she whispered to the empty room, her other hand roaming over her breast, pinching her nipple the way he had. The fantasy gained texture. She wasn't just imagining him; she was scripting him. “Yeah, just like that,” she muttered, mimicking his growl. “Take it.” Her fingers worked faster, curling inside herself. She pictured him above her, his lean hips driving forward, the headboard tapping. Her breathing became ragged gasps.

“Fuck, Will… please…”

A floorboard creaked in the living room.

Her eyes flew open. Her heart hammered against her ribs, a frantic drum. Every muscle in her body locked. She froze, fingers still lodged inside herself, a guilty tableau in the lamplight. The sound had been distinct, heavy. Not the building settling.

Another creak.Closer. A footstep.

Pure, cold terror flushed through her, evaporating the heat of a second before. She yanked her hand free, scrambling to pull the sheet over her naked body. Her apartment was small. There was nowhere to hide.

The bedroom door swung open silently.

He stood in the doorway, a silhouette framed by the dark hall. His leather jacket was slung over one shoulder, his travel bag at his feet. He looked exhausted, rumpled. And his eyes, those piercing blue eyes, were fixed on her with an intensity that stole the air from the room.

He didn’t speak. He just looked. His gaze traveled from her wide, shocked eyes, down to the sheet clutched to her chest, to the visible tremor in her hands. His expression was unreadable, a mask that slowly began to crack. One corner of his mouth twitched.

He’d heard her. He’d heard everything.

“I…” Her voice was a dry croak. “You said tomorrow.”

“Client meeting got moved. Caught an earlier flight.” His voice was low, gravelly from travel. He stepped into the room, letting his bag drop with a soft thud. “Wanted to surprise you.”

He was here. In her space. It felt like an invasion and a salvation all at once. The ordinary things of her life—her faded band poster, her stack of books, the half-empty glass of water—seemed suddenly shabby under his assessing gaze.

He came to the side of the bed, looking down at her. He reached out and gently tugged the sheet from her clenched fingers. It slid down her body, revealing her completely. The lamplight caught the sheen of slickness between her thighs.

His jaw tightened. “What were you doing, Mary?”

She couldn’t speak. Shame burned her cheeks.

He leaned down, bracing one hand on the mattress beside her head. He brought his face close to hers. She could smell the stale airplane air on his clothes, the faint, familiar scent of his skin beneath it.

“I asked you a question.” His voice was a quiet whip. “Were you thinking about me?”

She managed a tiny nod.

“Say it.”

“I was thinking about you.” The confession was a whisper.

“Were you touching yourself? Pretending it was me?”

Another nod, her eyes filling with stupid, hot tears.

He straightened up, his gaze never leaving hers. With deliberate, slow movements, he began to undress. The jacket hit the floor. He pulled his shirt over his head, the muscles of his stomach clenching. His belt buckle clinked as he unfastened it. The sound was obscenely loud. He shoved his jeans and boxers down in one motion, kicking them aside. He was fully, impressively erect.

“Look at the state of you,” he murmured, not with disgust, but with a dark, thrilling approval. “Soaked for me. And I wasn’t even here.”

He climbed onto the bed, his knees on either side of her hips. He didn’t touch her yet. He just loomed, letting her feel the heat radiating from his skin, the intimidating strength of his presence.

“Hands above your head,” he said, his tone leaving no room for question.

She obeyed, lifting her arms, crossing her wrists above her head on the pillow. It was a submission, an echo of the silk restraints. He didn’t tie her this time. He simply covered her wrists with one large hand, pinning them with effortless strength. The weight of it was absolute.

With his free hand, he traced a line from her throat, over her sternum, between her breasts, down the plane of her stomach. He stopped just above the thatch of dark hair. He watched her face, her fluttering eyelids, her parted lips.

“You were moaning my name,” he stated. “Let’s hear it again.”

He shifted his weight. His head dipped between her legs. His breath, hot and deliberate, washed over her most sensitive skin. She cried out, a short, sharp sound. Then his mouth was on her.

It wasn’t like the slow, teasing exploration of before. This was a claiming, a correction. His tongue speared into her, licking deep, cleaning the evidence of her own touch, replacing it with his. He fucked her with his tongue, a rough, rhythmic penetration that made her hips jerk off the bed. His grip on her wrists tightened, holding her down.

“Will!” she sobbed.

He pulled back slightly, focusing on her clit. He sucked the swollen bud into his mouth, applying a relentless, circling pressure with his tongue. His stubble scraped the tender flesh of her inner thighs, a delicious, abrasive counterpoint to the wet, soft friction.

“Is this what you wanted?” he growled against her flesh, his voice vibrating through her. “My mouth on your cunt? Hmm? Better than your fingers?”

“Yes! God, yes!”

“Louder.”

He dragged his tongue up through her soaked slit and flicked it hard against her clit. Her vision whited out. A scream ripped from her throat, raw and unchecked. He didn’t stop. He rode her through the convulsing waves of her orgasm, his mouth merciless, drinking every drop she gave him.

As the last tremors subsided, he released her wrists and moved up her body in one fluid motion. He was breathing hard, his eyes wild. He positioned himself at her entrance, the blunt head of his cock pressing insistently. She was impossibly sensitive, every nerve ending screaming.

“Look at me,” he commanded.

She forced her eyes open, meeting his fierce blue stare.

“This is mine,” he said, and slammed into her to the hilt in one brutal thrust.

She gasped, her body stretching to accommodate him, the fullness a shocking relief. He didn’t give her a second to adjust. He set a punishing pace, each drive of his hips a punctuation mark to his words. “Mine. To fuck. To use. To leave aching for me.” He leaned down, his mouth against her ear. “You don’t get to have this without me.Ever. You understand? You wait.”

“I understand,” she panted, the words broken by his thrusts. She wrapped her legs around his waist, pulling him deeper, wanting the punishment, the affirmation.

“Say it.”

“I’ll wait for you. I’ll wait.”

He fucked her like he was trying to brand her from the inside, his rhythm desperate, almost angry. The bedframe knocked against the wall in a steady, urgent rhythm. She could feel his control fraying, his thrusts becoming ragged. He was chasing his own end now, using her body to find his release.

“Come with me,” he grunted, his voice thick. “Now, Mary.”

His command, the sheer dominance in his tone, triggered her second climax. It was sharper, more intense than the first, a detonation that clenched around his driving cock. He swore, a long, low stream of filth, and with three final, deep lunges, he emptied himself inside her with a guttural groan that seemed ripped from his soul.

He collapsed, his full weight pressing her into the mattress, his face buried in her neck. The room was filled with the sounds of their labored breathing, the faint city hum from her open window, the relentless tick, tick, tick of the clock.

Slowly, he rolled off, taking her with him, tucking her against his side. His skin was slick with sweat, his heart still pounding against her back.

He was silent for so long she thought he might have fallen asleep. Then his fingers began to trace idle circles on her arm.

“My flight was hell,” he said, his voice quiet, stripped bare. “All I could think about was getting back here. To you.”

The words, simple and unadorned, did more to unravel her than any obscenity. She turned in his arms, facing him. In the soft lamplight, he looked younger, the guardedness gone, replaced by a weary openness.

“You’re really here,” she whispered.

He kissed her forehead, a gesture so tender it made her chest hurt. “I’m here.”

She nestled closer, the earlier fear and shame dissolving into a profound, aching relief. He had crossed the distance. He had found her wanting, and had filled the emptiness with himself. The need was satisfied, for now. But as she listened to his breathing even out into sleep, a new awareness dawned. The craving wasn’t just for his body. It was for this—the brutal honesty that lived in the space between his filth and his tenderness. And that was a far more dangerous addiction.

And that was a far more dangerous addiction.

The next morning bloomed bright and ordinary. Will was gone by the time her alarm blared, a scribbled note on her pillow smelling of ink and him: Emergency revision meeting. Call you tonight. The hollow returned, but it was different now. Laced with his scent on her sheets, the phantom feel of his palm pinning her wrists. She showered, dressed in her standard black polo and jeans for the shop, the routine movements feeling like an actor’s pantomime.

The coffee shop’s bell jingled its familiar, cheery sound. The smell of roasted beans and steamed milk was usually a comfort, but today it felt thin. Her coworker, Chloe, was already polishing the espresso machine, her purple ponytail bobbing.

“You look tired,” Chloe said without looking up.

“Didn’t sleep great.”

Chloe finally glanced over, her eyes sharp. “Or at all? Someone’s got that ‘I got properly railed’ vibe.”

Mary felt a flush climb her neck. She turned to the industrial grinder, filling it with beans. The roar of the motor drowned out any need to reply. The morning rush descended, a merciful cascade of orders that required all her focus. Cappuccinos, lattes, one ridiculously complicated honey-oatmilk-matcha thing that allowed no room for thought.

Her eyes kept darting to the door. Every time it opened, her heart performed a foolish, hopeful stutter. It was never him. Of course it wasn’t. He was in a meeting, in his world of clients and revisions, a world she could not picture.

She was cleaning the steam wand when the bell chimed again. The hair on her arms stood up. She knew, even before she turned.

He stood just inside the door, the morning light from the window framing him. No leather jacket today, just a simple grey Henley and dark jeans. He looked focused, a leather portfolio under his arm. A client?Here? Her pulse stumbled.

He didn’t approach the counter. He gave her a slow, deliberate look, a ghost of a smile touching his lips. Then he turned and walked to a small table in the far corner, the one tucked beside the philosophy section of the used bookcase. He sat, opened his portfolio, and became absorbed in a spread of design mock-ups.

He was working. In her shop. As if it were any other café.

Mary’s hands felt clumsy. She knocked over a sleeve of cups. Chloe arched a brow, following her line of sight. “Oh. Him. The mysterious graphic design hottie. Since when does he camp out?”

“I don’t know,” Mary whispered, her mouth dry.

For an hour, he was a fixture. He ordered a single black coffee from Chloe when she passed, nodding his thanks without looking up from his work. He was a professional immersed in his craft, utterly separate from the man who had pinned her to her own bed mere hours ago. The disconnect was dizzying.

She felt exposed. Every mundane action—wiping a counter, calling out an order—felt scrutinized. Was he watching? He never seemed to. But the awareness of him was a low, constant hum in her blood, like the shop’s refrigeration unit.Her break arrived. She untied her apron, her back to the corner. She felt him stand. Felt the shift in the air. She turned.

He was packing his portfolio, his movements efficient. He slid it under his arm and walked toward the back hallway, toward the staff bathroom and the small, cluttered break room. He passed close enough for her to catch his scent—soap and faint, clean sweat. His fingers brushed hers as he passed, a fleeting, electric contact.No words.

She stood frozen for a three-count, then followed.

The break room was a windowless cubicle with a laminate table, two chairs, and a dying fern. He was there, leaning against the sink, his portfolio discarded on the table. The door clicked shut behind her, sealing them in silence broken only by the distant hiss of the espresso machine.

“What are you doing here?” she breathed.

“The client wanted a ‘creative environment’ for the review.” His voice was quiet, conversational. “I thought of here.”

“You’re torturing me.”

“Am I?” He pushed off the sink, closing the small distance between them. He didn’t touch her. He just looked down at her, his blue eyes scanning her face, her work polo, the name tag that read ‘Mary’. “I wanted to see you in your world. The sunny barista who makes everyone feel comfortable.”

He said it like it was a costume she wore.

“It’s just a job.”

“Is it?” He reached out then, but not for her body. He touched a strand of her hair that had escaped her ponytail, tucking it slowly behind her ear. His fingertips grazed her cheek. The tenderness was worse than aggression. “I sat out there imagining what you had on under this.” His hand slid down, over the stiff cotton of her polo, palm cupping her breast. His thumb found her nipple through the fabric, rubbing it slowly into a hard peak.

She inhaled sharply.

“I could hear you talking to that old man about his beagle,” he continued, his thumb working in a steady, circular rhythm. “Your voice was so sweet. So fucking nice.” His other hand came up, mirroring the first, taking her other breast. He squeezed, not hard, but with a possessive firmness. “And all I could think about was how wet you were for me last night. How you screamed into your pillow.”

She was melting against him, her professionalism a puddle on the linoleum floor. “Will…”

“Shhh.” He leaned in, his mouth hovering near hers. “My good girl. My dirty little secret.”

He kissed her then, a deep, languid invasion that tasted of black coffee and a specific, concentrated hunger. His hands left her breasts and went to the button of her jeans. The sound of the zipper coming down was obscenely loud in the tiny room.

“They’ll wonder where I am,” she managed against his mouth.

“Let them wonder.”

He shoved her jeans and panties down her thighs in one rough motion. He turned her, bending her forward over the laminate table. The surface was cool against her burning cheeks. Her own reflection, wide-eyed and flushed, stared back from the brushed metal of the toaster.

He freed himself from his jeans. There was no preamble, no gentleness born of the morning’s earlier tenderness. He positioned himself and drove into her with a single, powerful thrust.

The stretch was immediate, breathtaking. She was still sensitive from the night before, and the forceful entry bordered on pain. A choked cry escaped her.

“Take it,” he commanded, his hands gripping her hips, holding her in place. He began to move, a steady, deep, relentless rhythm. This wasn’t about her pleasure. This was a brand.A reminder. Each stroke was a claim staked in the most mundane of places, her break room, her work day.

“This cunt is mine,” he grunted, his pace increasing. The table scraped against the floor with every thrust. “You serve coffee out there. You serve this to me.”

He fucked her with a focused intensity, the raw, wet sound of their joining filling the small room. He reached around her hip, his fingers finding her clit. He rubbed it in hard, fast circles, the stimulation almost brutal.

“Come for me,” he demanded, his breath hot on her neck.“Now. While anyone could walk in.”

The illicit thrill, the dominance in his voice, the relentless friction—it coiled the tension in her belly to a snapping point. She came with a stifled gasp, her inner muscles clamping around him in rhythmic pulses. Her knees buckled, but he held her up, his thrusts becoming erratic, losing their precision.

Feeling her climax, he buried himself to the hilt. A raw, guttural sound ripped from his throat as he emptied into her, his body shuddering against her back.

Silence, save for their ragged breathing.

Slowly, he softened inside her. He withdrew. He righted his clothes with efficient movements. She stayed slumped over the table, her jeans around her thighs, feeling the slow trickle of his release trace a path down her inner leg.

He came around the table. He cupped her chin, tilting her face up. He kissed her, softly. “I’ll call tonight.”

Then he picked up his portfolio, opened the door, and was gone.

She listened to his footsteps fade down the hall. She righted her clothes with trembling hands. Her reflection in the toaster was different now—lips swollen, eyes dark, hair mussed. She looked exactly like what she was: a woman split in two.

The cool air from the vent above kissed the damp spot on her polo. She closed her eyes, the memory of his possession a live wire under her skin.

The day dragged, each minute a lifetime. Chloe shot her curious glances but said nothing. Mary moved through the motions, but she was hyper-aware of the soreness between her legs, the secret she carried. When her shift finally ended, the release was physical. She walked home through the cooling evening, the city lights winking on, each step a reminder.

She ate a silent dinner. She tried to read. The clock ticked. He didn’t call. The digital display on her oven read 9:47 PM. The hollowness expanded, morphing into a sharp, anxious dread. The intensity of the afternoon felt like a dream, or a mistake. Had he gotten what he needed? Was that it?

She paced her small living room. She replayed every word, every touch. The brutal claiming in the break room felt disconnected from the man who tucked her hair behind her ear. Which one was real?

Her phone buzzed on the couch. A text. Her heart lunged.

Open your door.

She stared at the words. They weren’t a request. She crossed the room, her hand unsteady on the deadbolt. She opened the door.

He stood there, leaning against the doorframe. He wore the same clothes from earlier, but the professional focus was gone, replaced by a raw, unvarnished exhaustion. His eyes were shadowed.

“You didn’t call,” she said, her voice small.

“I’m here instead.” He stepped inside, closing the door behind him. He didn’t kiss her. He just looked at her, as if trying to memorize her face. “The meeting went to shit. The client killed six months of work.”

He sounded stripped, hollowed out.

“I’m sorry.”

He gave a short, humorless laugh. “Yeah.” He walked past her into the living room, shedding his jacket. He sat on the edge of her couch, elbows on his knees, head in his hands. This vulnerability was new. It was more intimate than anything they’d done physically.

She sat beside him, not touching. “What can I do?”

He turned his head, his gaze burning into her. “You know what you can do.”

It wasn’t a command this time. It was a plea. A need for oblivion, for a sensation powerful enough to obliterate the professional failure. She understood. She rose, standing before him. She pulled her soft cotton t-shirt over her head. She shimmied out of her sleep shorts and panties.

She stood naked before him, an offering.His eyes darkened. He reached for her, pulling her down so she straddled his lap on the couch. He was already hard beneath his jeans. She fumbled with his button, his zipper, freeing him. She positioned herself, sinking down onto his length with a slow, deliberate gravity.

They both groaned. This wasn’t the frantic, claiming fuck from the break room. This was deeper, slower, a desperate fusion. She rocked her hips, taking him in completely, her arms around his neck, her forehead against his.

He moved with her, his hands on her ass, guiding her rhythm. His eyes were closed, his breathing syncing with hers. This was solace. This was the only language they had for this particular hurt.

His mouth found her shoulder, biting down gently, then soothing the spot with his tongue. “That’s it,” he whispered. “Just like that. Take me all the way.”

She moved faster, chasing a feeling for both of them. The tension from the day, the anxiety of waiting, the need to erase his failure, all coiled into the physical act. Her climax built, a swelling wave from her core.

“I’m close,” she panted.

“Look at me.”

She opened her eyes. His stare was unwavering, intense, a tether.

“Come for me,” he said, his voice rough. “Let go.”

She shattered, crying out as the wave broke, her body clamping around him in intense pulses. Her release triggered his. He thrust up into her, holding her hips down hard as he came with a sharp, fractured groan, his body arching into hers.

They slumped together, a sweaty, spent tangle on the couch. His arms tightened around her, holding her so close she could feel his heart hammering against her own.

Long minutes passed. The quiet was different now, the sharp edges of the day smoothed away.

He spoke into her hair, his voice barely audible. “Don’t let me screw this up, Mary.”

Before she could answer, before she could even process the profound vulnerability of the words, his hands were moving again. They traced the line of her spine, but the tenderness was morphing, shifting back into that dark, familiar hunger. The failure needed more than solace, it seemed. It needed annihilation.

He lifted her off him, laying her down on the worn rug. The fibers scratched her back. He knelt between her legs, his gaze traveling over her splayed body with a possessive intensity that made her shiver.

“I want to ruin you for anyone else,” he stated, his voice low and deliberate. “I want the memory of my cock to be the only thing your tight little cunt knows.”

He pushed her thighs apart, wider. He leaned down, but not to kiss. He spat, once, directly onto her exposed core. The wetness was shockingly cold. He used his fingers, spreading his own spend and saliva, mixing it with her slickness, making a lewd, wet mess.

She whimpered, the act profoundly degrading, yet it sparked a fire in her belly.

He positioned himself. “Tell me you want it.”

“I want it.”

“Tell me you need it.”

“I need it.”

He entered her again. She was over-sensitive, stretched, impossibly full. He set a punishing rhythm, each thrust a jolt. The room faded. There was only the raw, aching friction, the sound of skin slapping skin, the sight of his straining abdomen, the veins on his forearms corded with effort.

He was chasing something past pleasure, past release. His face was a mask of fierce concentration. He fucked her with a deep, animalistic drive, claiming not just her body but the entire awful day, burying it inside her.

The climax, when it hit him, was silent. His body went rigid, his mouth open in a soundless cry, his eyes screwed shut. He pumped into her, his hips giving short, jerky thrusts until he was completely spent.

He collapsed onto her, crushing her into the rug. His weight was immense, final. She could barely breathe.

When he finally rolled off, the chill of the room hit her damp skin. He lay beside her, staring at her ceiling. “I can’t get enough of you,” he said. It sounded like a curse.

She turned her head. In the dim light, the lines of his profile were stark. The man from the coffee shop was gone. The man who whispered tenderly was gone. Only this raw, hungry creature remained, and she had asked for it. No, she had begged for it.

The realization was a cold splash. The need in her wasn't just to please him, or even to connect. It was to feed this part of him, to be the receptacle for his darkness because it made her feel essential.Needed. It was a sick, symbiotic loop.

He turned his head, his blue eyes catching the light from the streetlamp outside. They were unreadable again, the guard firmly back in place. The vulnerability was sealed away, as if it had never happened.

He sat up, running a hand through his hair. “I should go.”

Her heart seized. “Stay.”

He looked down at her, naked and wanton on the floor. A faint, apologetic smile touched his lips. It didn’t reach his eyes. “I have an early video call with London.” He stood, collecting his clothes, dressing with swift, economical movements. The intimacy was being packed away, item by item.

He was at the door, leather jacket in hand. He looked back at her, still on the rug. “Lock this behind me.”

Then he was gone.

The silence of the apartment was absolute, and heavy. She pulled her knees to her chest on the rug, the drying evidence of their coupling sticky on her inner thighs. The empty space where he had just been felt more profound than any physical presence. She had offered everything—comfort, sex, a place to bury his anger. And it wasn't enough. He took it, consumed it, and left. The hunger, she understood now, was bottomless. And she was the feast.

A slow, creeping resolve hardened within her. It started as a cold kernel in her stomach. She would not just be consumed. She would learn his hunger. She would match it. She would become something he couldn’t simply walk away from when the sun came up.

Her eyes, dry and steady, fixed on the closed door. The next time he came for her, she would be ready. Not just to receive, but to devour in return.

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