Chapter 8: The Call
The silence in the wake of his confession was heavier than the duvet. Sage lay perfectly still, the phantom heat of his body seared into her skin. Kaisen remained at the window, a statue outlined in neon, his hands now shoved deep into his pockets. The space between them was a canyon.
He finally moved, a stiff, deliberate turn away from the cityscape. He didn’t look at her. “We should sleep. Big day tomorrow with the financials.”
He clicked off the bedside lamp, plunging the room into the erratic, colored glow of the television they’d left on mute. The sudden darkness felt like a mercy. She heard the rustle of fabric as he lay down on the very edge of his side of the bed, putting as much distance between them as physically possible.
Sleep was a distant country. She stared at the flickering screen, watching silent news anchors and cartoon characters, her mind a riot of his words. I’m engaged. It was a mistake. This is entirely on me. The formal, almost clinical tone he’d used was worse than anger. It was a verdict.
Sage must have drifted off, because the shrill, insistent sound of a phone vibrating on wood jolted her awake. Gray morning light filtered through the window. The phone buzzed again, skittering across the nightstand on Kaisen’s side.
He was already in the bathroom, the shower running. The phone lit up again. Jane. The name glowed in the semi-darkness.
She looked away, focusing on the pattern of the curtains, trying to give him privacy even though he wasn't there to claim it. The shower cut off. A minute later, the bathroom door opened, steam billowing out followed by Kaisen, a towel slung low around his hips, another scrubbing through his damp hair. Water droplets traced paths down the defined planes of his chest.
His eyes went immediately to the buzzing phone. He stilled, his gaze flicking to her for a fraction of a second before he snatched the device.
“Jane. Hey.” His voice was a carefully modulated instrument, warm and easy. A perfect performance.
He listened, turning his back to Sage as he walked toward the window. “No, you’re not interrupting. Just getting ready.” A low, practiced chuckle. “Yeah, the case is a grind. You know how it is.”
Sage watched the muscles in his back tighten. He ran a hand through his damp hair, his posture a masterpiece of feigned relaxation.
“The wedding planner? Tell her whatever you think is best. I trust your judgment completely.” The words were right, but the delivery was flat, devoid of any real investment. “Florals, china, it all sounds great. Really.”
He listened for another moment, his free hand clenching and unclenching at his side. “I know I’ve been distant. It’s this case. It’s demanding everything.” He paused. “I miss you, too.”
The lie was so smooth, so effortless, it stole the air from Sage’s lungs. He’d said the same thing to her last night, his voice raw and shattered. This was different. This was a recording.
“Okay. I’ll call you later. Bye, Jane.” He ended the call and stood there, phone in hand, staring out at the bleary morning. The cheerful facade evaporated, leaving behind something hollow and weary.
He didn’t move until he sensed her watching him. He turned slowly, his blue eyes meeting hers across the room. There was no apology in them, no shame. Just a bleak, unsettling honesty. He had let her see the machinery behind the performance.
“We need to be downstairs in thirty,” he said, his voice stripped of all artifice now, cold and factual.
He dressed with his back to her, pulling on his uniform of an expensive suit, each piece a layer of armor clicking back into place. The man from last night, the one with the trembling hands and shattered eyes, was gone.
But as Sage gathered her own clothes and moved toward the bathroom, a dangerous realization crystallized. He wasn’t just divided. He was a ghost in his own life, going through the motions with a woman he was promised to, while his real self, his raw and broken self, was here in this sterile hotel room with her.
He was lying to Jane with every polished, empty word. But the cold, detached tone he’d used with Sage this morning? That, she understood with a sinking certainty, might have been the truest thing he’d said all day.