Chapter 6: Break into Two
The sun peaking through the window wakes up Sebastian, his tiny cock hard from the dreams he had all night. Today is the day, I am going to tell Scott the truth. Sebastian thinks to himself as he gets ready to meet Scott and Sam for their tutoring session. His heart is pounding, and his palms are sweating. He knows he's playing with fire, but he can't keep living this lie. He needs to come clean, to tell Scott the truth about who he really is.
He knocks on the door, and Scott answers, a warm smile on his face. "Hey, Sebastian.
Sebastian steps inside, his heart pounding in his chest. He takes a deep breath and tries to steady his nerves. "Hi, Scott.
Thanks for having me over again," Sebastian says, his voice slightly shaky.
Scott closes the door behind him and motions towards the kitchen table. "No problem, Sebastian. I appreciate your help with Sam."
Sebastian nods and takes a seat, his hands fidgeting with the strap of his backpack. He looks around the room, trying to find the right words to start the conversation he's been dreading for days.
Scott notices his discomfort and raises an eyebrow. You seem a little... off today."
Sebastian takes a deep breath and looks Scott straight in the eye. “Scott, could we have a word in private?” Sebastian asks, his voice barely above a whisper.
Scott frowns, concern etched on his face. “Of course. Sam, why don’t you grab a snack”
Sam nods and skips off towards the kitchen , leaving Scott and Sebastian alone in the living room.
Scott turns to Sebastian, his eyes searching. “What’s going on, Sebastian? You’re scaring me a little bit.”
Sebastian takes a deep breath, “Can we go to the garage for privacy?” his heart pounding in his chest. He knows this is it, the moment of truth. He can either come clean or continue living this lie.
He knows the consequences of either choice, but he also knows he can't keep this up forever. Scott nods, his expression serious as he follows Sebastian into the garage. Once the door is shut behind them, Sebastian turns to face Scott, his heart pounding in his chest. "Scott, I need to tell you something. Something important."
Scott's eyebrows furrow as he looks at Sebastian, concern etched on his face. "Sebastian, what's going on? You're freaking me out."
Sebastian takes a deep breath, steeling himself for what he's about to say. "I...
I'm not who you think I am, Scott. I'm not Sebastian."
Scott's eyes widen in surprise, and he takes a step back, his brows furrowing in confusion. "What do you mean, you're not Sebastian?"
Sebastian swallows hard, his heart pounding like a drum in his chest. He can't believe he's finally doing this, finally coming clean. He takes a deep breath and plunges on. "My name is Lily. I'm the girl you've been talking to online.The one who calls you Daddy."
Scott's eyes widen in shock, his jaw dropping as he stares at Sebastian in disbelief. "What... what are you talking about? That's not possible. How... why..."
Sebastian takes a step forward, his hands trembling slightly. "I'm sorry, Scott. I never meant for this to happen. I just wanted to... to get to know you. To feel connected to someone, anyone, after so long. And then I started talking to you, and I... I fell for you. I fell hard.
I never meant to hurt you, Scott. I never meant to deceive you. I just wanted... I wanted to feel alive," Lily confesses, her voice trembling with emotion.
Scott stands frozen, his mind racing as he tries to process what she's saying. He feels a mix of shock, betrayal, and something else he can't quite put his finger on. Finally, he finds his voice. "You mean to tell me that you've been catfishing me this whole time? Pretending to be someone else?"
Lily nods, tears welling up in her eyes. "I know it was wrong, Scott.
I never meant for any of this to happen. I just... I needed someone. And then I saw you at church and everything changed. I fell for you, Scott. I fell hard," Lily admits, tears streaming down her face.
Scott's mind is a whirlwind of emotions. Betrayal, confusion, and despite everything, a lingering tenderness for the person standing in front of him. He takes a deep breath, trying to sort out his thoughts. "Why are you telling me this now, Lily? After all this time?"
Lily sniffles, wiping away her tears. "Because I can't keep doing this, Scott. You told me you would love me no matter what. Do you still love me now?”
Lily asks, her voice barely above a whisper.
Scott runs a hand through his hair, his mind spinning with all the revelations. He looks into Lily's eyes, seeing the raw emotion, the vulnerability, and the fear. He knows he should be angry, should be lashing out at the betrayal, but all he feels is a profound sadness and a deep longing to make things right.
“I do, Lily, I mean Sebastian!” Scott finally says, his voice soft. “I love you. But this... this changes everything. Your really a boy.” Scott's voice was barely above a whisper, his mind trying to wrap around the truth that had just been revealed. He looked at Sebastian, at Lily, and saw the person he had come to care for deeply. The person he had fallen in love with.
Sebastian nodded, his eyes filled with tears. “Yes, I’m a boy. I’m Sebastian. I’m sorry, Scott. I never meant to hurt you or deceive you. I just… I needed someone. I needed you.”
Scott took a step back, his mind racing. He felt a mix of betrayal, confusion, and a lingering tenderness for the person in front of him.
“I need a minute.” Scott demands and retreats to his old sanctuary, the one lily pulled him out of, the bathroom.
He slams the door behind him and leans against it, his heart pounding in his chest. He feels like he's been punched in the gut, the air knocked out of his lungs. Betrayal, confusion, and hurt all swirl inside him like a tempest. He can't believe what he just found out. Lily, his Lily, the one he poured his heart out to, the one he fell in love with, was a lie. A boy pretending to be a girl. He runs a hand through his hair, tugging at the roots as he tries to process everything.
He thinks back to all the times they talked, all the shared secrets, all the promises made.
He thinks about the way she made him feel, the way she understood him in a way no one else ever had. He thinks about the way he fell in love with her, with Lily.
But now, it's all a lie.
He feels a wave of nausea wash over him as he sinks down to the bathroom floor, his back pressing against the cool tiles. He pulls his knees to his chest and rests his head on his arms, trying to block out the world.
But the world keeps spinning, spinning with the truth he can't escape.
He hears the soft knock at the door, the concerned voice that calls out to him, "Scott? Are you okay in there?"
It's Sam. He can't let her see him like this. He can't let her see the truth. Not yet.
"I'm fine, Sam," he croaks, his voice barely recognizable. "I just... I'll be out in a minute."
He hears her footsteps retreat down the hallway, the soft click of her bedroom door closing behind her. He's alone again, alone with his thoughts, alone with the truth.
Scotts mind is racing and his heart is broken. I have never even looked at a male in a sexual way before. Lily has a penis. What do I do. How can I love someone with a penis? Yet, I do love Sebastian, or do I love Lily? He had so many questions swirling in his head. He felt like his mind was a tornado, spinning wildly out of control. He couldn't believe he was sitting on the cold bathroom floor, his back pressed against the tiles, his world turned upside down.
Scott came to his feet and washed his face with cool water. A knock at the door. “Scott?” The concerned voice of his wife, Lisa, breaks the silence. “Are you okay, honey?”
Scott opens the door to find Sebastian standing there, his eyes filled with tears, “ I sent Sam down to get ice cream I gave her some money. Can we talk Scott?” Sebastian asks, his voice thick with despair.
Scott looks at Sebastian, standing in the doorway, his eyes filled with tears and his heart aching with the weight of his confession. He steps aside, allowing Sebastian to enter the bathroom.
"I can't even begin to explain how much this hurts, Sebastian. I thought I knew you, I thought I understood you. But it was all a lie," Scott says, his voice barely above a whisper.
Sebastian nods, tears streaming down his face. "I know, Scott.
And I'm so sorry," Sebastian says, his voice thick with tears. "I never meant for any of this to happen. And then I saw you, and everything changed."
Scott leans against the bathroom counter, his arms crossed over his chest as he looks at Sebastian. He can't deny the love he feels for the person standing in front of him, but there's also a deep sense of betrayal and confusion.
"How could you do this to me, Sebastian? How could you lie to me like this for so long?" Scott asks, his voice laced with pain and frustration.
"How can I trust anything you say now? How do I know that any of this is real?"
Sebastian sniffles, wiping away his tears with the back of his hand. "I understand that, Scott. I do. And I can't blame you for feeling that way. I wish you could see it from my perspective. I feel in love with you years ago Scott and it didn’t make sense. I watched you loving you in silence wishing I could help you in some kind of way. You were so sad and it broken me. I made the tik tok for you and the pictures and videos are me I just positioned myself right and I do kinda look like a girl. That’s the truth.”
Scott sighs, running a hand through his hair. "I don't know, Sebastian. I just... it's hard to process all of this. I feel like everything I thought I knew about you, about us, has been a lie. How do I know what's real and what's not?"
Sebastian takes a deep breath, his eyes meeting Scott's. "It’s our connection daddy.” Tears pouring down his face. Scott feels a sting of sadness for Sebastian watching the tears fall from his eyes without end.
Scott grabs a towel from the drawer and starts wiping his tears softly. Scott thinks to himself, our connection was something he knew he would never feel again, he always knew that was true. He thinks back to all the times they talked online, the way he felt so seen and understood by her, by Lily. He remembers the way she always knew just what to say to make him feel better, to make him laugh. He remembers the way she made him feel alive again.
Scott looks at Sebastian, his eyes filled with determination. "I need time to process this, Sebastian. I can't just... I can't just forget everything we've shared, everything we've built. I have never been with a man before.”
Scott confesses while wiping away Sebastian’s tears. “I have always thought I was straight. I have never been attracted to a man before .”He says, his voice barely above a whisper.
Sebastian looks up at him, his eyes filled with hope and sadness. “I know, Daddy. I understand. I am not asking for you to do something you are not comfortable with. I just want you to know the truth.”
Scott sits down next to Sebastian on the cold tile floor, his heart aching with the weight of their conversation. “I don’t know what to do Sebastian. Bbbbut I do know I love you still. My heart aches watching you cry.” Scott whispered, his voice hoarse with emotion.
Sebastian took a deep, shuddering breath, his eyes never leaving Scott's. “Did you just say you still love me, Scott?” Sebastian asked, his voice filled with a mixture of hope and disbelief.
Scott nodded, his eyes locked onto Sebastian’s. “I do, Lily… I mean, Sebastian. I love you. But I don’t know what that means anymore. I don’t know how to reconcile the person I fell in love with online with the person sitting in front of me right now.”
Sebastian’s eyes welled up with tears once again. “I understand, daddy! May I still call you daddy in private?” Sebastian asked softly.
Scott looked into Sebastian’s hopeful eyes and nodded slowly. “Yes, you can still call me daddy in private. It’s one of the things that I love about our connection.”
Sebastian smiled weakly, relief visible on his face. "Thank you, Daddy. I... I don't know what to say. I don't want to lose you, but I understand if you need time."
Scott looked at Sebastian, his heart aching with the weight of the moment. "Time won't change how I feel, Sebastian. I love you, and I need to figure out what that means for us. For me."
Sebastian wiped away his tears, taking a deep breath. "I understand, Daddy. I'll give you the space you need. But please, promise me that you'll think about what we had, what we have.
Promise me that you won't just throw it away without even trying." Sebastian's voice was barely a whisper, his eyes filled with a desperate plea.
Scott looked into Sebastian's eyes and saw the raw emotion, the love, and the fear. He sighed, running a hand through his hair.
"What do you mean by trying, Sebastian?” Scott asked, his voice heavy with the weight of the situation. He knew what Sebastian was asking, but he also knew the enormity of the request.
Sebastian took a deep breath, his eyes never leaving Scott's. "I mean, give us a chance. Give me a chance to show you that this is real. That what we have is real. That I'm not just some boy pretending to be a girl.
I love you, Scott. And I know that's hard to believe right now, but I do. I've loved you for so long, and I can't just turn that off. I want to be with you, in every way possible. Pretend I’m lily right now and we are meeting for the first time. Please daddy pretend!” Sebastian pleaded, tears streaming down his cheeks. “Just give us a chance, a real chance, and I promise you won’t regret it.”
Scott looked at Sebastian, his heart pounding. He felt a mix of confusion, betrayal, and a lingering tenderness for the person in front of him. He knew he should walk away, that this was too much to handle. But he also knew that he couldn’t just turn off his feelings for Lily, for Sebastian.
“I... I don’t know if I can do that,” Scott admitted, his voice barely above a whisper.
“I don’t know if I can look at you and see Lily, not after everything that’s happened.”
Sebastian reaches over and turns off the lights and pulls his petite body close to Scott and gives him a sweet embrace. Scott can feel his heartbeat against his chest and starts to feel a stirring deep inside of him. Sebastian leans up and kisses him on the cheek.
"Can we just pretend to meet for the first time?" Sebastian whispers. "Just for tonight, can you please pretend I'm Lily? I just want to feel like we did before, just one more time."
Scott doesn't know what to say, but he can't deny the way his body is responding to Sebastian's touch. He feels a heat building inside of him, a desire he has with only lily.
Scott stand still like a statue in the pitch black. Sebastian tip toes to reach Scott’s lips with his own and rest them there without moving.
Scott feels the softness, the tenderness. He feels the familiarity of Lily’s lips on his, and his mind swims with memories of their online talks, their shared secrets, their promises. He feels a warmth spreading through him, a comfort he had longed for, a connection he had craved.
He lets out a soft sigh, his arms wrapping around Sebastian’s waist, pulling him closer. He feels the steady rhythm of Sebastian’s heartbeat against his chest, the rise and fall of his breath. He smells the faint scent of vanilla that always lingered in Lily’s messages, now here, in the dark, in his arms.
He feels a tear slip down his cheek, the weight of their shared history and the impossible situation they now find themselves in.
Sebastian pulls back slightly, his hands cupping Scott’s face, his thumbs brushing away the tear. “Daddy, please don’t cry. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry for everything. I never meant to hurt you.”
Scott shakes his head, his voice barely a whisper. “I know, baby. It’s just... Scott passionately kisses Sebastian’s lips. They slowly kiss for three whole minutes. Scott trembling. "Lily." he breathes in between their kiss.
Sebastian quietly mutters, “ yes it’s lily daddy.” He felt a sense of relief washing over him. For the past three minutes, he had been kissing Scott, and it felt like coming home after a long journey. He had poured his heart and soul into that kiss, hoping that Scott would feel the love, the desire, and the trust that he had for him.
Scott pulled back slightly, his breathing heavy as the darkness enveloped them. “You feel like her, Sebastian. You taste like her. You kiss like her. But...” Scott trailed off, his voice laced with uncertainty.
Sebastian’s heart sank, but he kept his composure. “But what, Daddy?
What's on your mind?” Sebastian asked, his voice barely a whisper, his breath still mingling with Scott's.
Scott sighed, his hand gently cupping Sebastian's cheek. "Your penis” was all he managed to say, the words feeling heavy and foreign on his tongue. He felt the way his body tensed up.
"Yes, Daddy. I have a penis, But daddy it is very small it could be a big clit" Sebastian confessed. Tears starting to fall again, he wishes he had a pussy, and had been born a girl. He wishes he could take his own penis and cut it off, just to be more like Lily, to be more like what Scott wants. He feels a sob escape him as he hiccups.
Scott touches Sebastian on the arm. “We are surrounded by the dark right now, can I touch it?”
Sebastian can’t believe his ears. “Anything for you daddy!” He quickly unzips his pants and pulls out his tiny cock. “It’s ready!”