Chapter 2: Chapter 2
I've been thinking a lot about my wife lately. Not because I don't want to have sex with her, but because I do. She has this way of making me feel guilty for wanting to fuck other women. She says it makes me a piece of shit and that I should be ashamed of myself. I try not to be, but the guilt is eating me up inside.I've never cheated on her, but I have thought about it many times. I've thought about fucking another woman while she watches. I've thought about her watching me fuck another woman. But I never go through with it. Part of me wants to, just to see what it would be like, but another part of me is scared shitless of what would happen if I did.But what really turns me on is thinking of her talking to other men, seducing strangers, meeting other guys wives. That turns me on so much that I can barely stand it. It makes me so horned up that I can no longer control myself. I start masturbating as soon as I think about it and before I know it, I cum.It's happened more than once and each time I feel guilty afterwards. I keep telling myself that next time will be different and that I won't get caught, but deep down I know it won't be the first time or the last time. I just have to do it. I have to feel the power of another man as he shoots his load in my wife.I've told her about this fantasy, but she doesn't seem to want to act on it. She says she doesn't want to play with other men. I understand, but I also see her looking at other men and smiling. Sometimes I wonder if she does it to make me jealous, but I know it isn’t.It makes her happy and that makes me happy. So I let it go and enjoy.
My wife is a beautiful woman. Not very tall, round legs, perfect tits, full pout, she has it all. And a personality. She is so frigid right now that it takes her months to warm up to me and even longer to let me inside her. But she was such a slut when we met.She slept with anyone who gave her the slightest bit of attention. However , over the past year or so, things have changed. She stopped going out and started spending most of her days cleaning our house and taking care of the kids. She rarely goes out anymore.Which means I don't get to see her talk to other men. Or even look at other men. I miss that. Although she still looks pretty good for a mother of two, she hasn’t been getting any younger. So I plan a night out for us to bring her inner slut back.